You don’t choose your family. 

They are God’s gift to you, as you are to them. 

You can kiss your family good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. 

Relationships are like glass.  Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together. 

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately you’ve been acting so cold
(didn’t you say)
If there’s a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don’t even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
It’s not me here who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I’m sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it’s, too late, to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I’m missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I’m sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it’s, too late, to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don’t say those words it’s so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don’t love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I’m sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it’s, too late, to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

dec. 7, 2006 at 8:36 a.m. will be the worst day of my life. when I received a phone call from my son’s school that he had an accident.a bench or table fell on him…i was in total shocked. i just simply don’t know what to do…my world seems tumbling down. it’s impossible. it can’t be - not to my baby boy. i took a cab going to bangkok hospital because i can’t drive that moment…i’m losing my mind. the hospital is only 18 kilometers away from my home but it seems it took me ages to reach there. luckily, my husband’s office is near the hospital but that time he’s having a very important meeting…for him-family comes first..meeting is over. he rushed to the hospital to be with our baby boy. he keeps on telling me that he’s fine and i don’t need to worry but in my mind … he’s lying. i need to see my baby. at the emergency room…there’s my baby boy - waiting for me…just to hold his little hands and hug him before they inject the anaesthesia and start the minor surgery. tears already dry, and now he’s smiling to me…the sweetest smile…giving me the assurance that everything is fine. i started to cry again. he showed me that he’s now a big boy and he can handle the pain…while the doctor is treating his wound - he even told me that he wants his stitches like a cross stitch so he can show it to his friends that he got a special tattoo. he got 6 stitches on his left leg (just above his ankle) nothing serious as what my baby told me. what a relief !!! but sad to say …no taekwondo for him for the next 3 weeks…so he will miss the belt promotion exams at the end of the month. anyway, that’s fine with me. what is important - he’s safe and sound…at least for now, my nightmare is over.

my dear awie, i’m so proud of you but promise me don’t grow up so fast…i love you very much……mama

8th December 2006
   

Thank You For Being My Son

What can I say to you to let you know
what a special person you’ve been in my life?
You have always been there for me
like a guardian angel…
you’ve been my best friend,
my playmate, my father,
my helper, my mirror, my teacher,
my student,
as well as my handsome son…
it seems whatever my needs are
at the time,
you are exactly what I am needing.

I love so many things about you…
I love your beautiful smile,
I love the way you love life
and live every moment to be happy…
I love that you don’t make me
feel old when I’m with you.

I love the way you make me feel
like a special Mama…
I love your sensitivity to me
and to others,
and I love that you are
so much fun just to be with.

I love that you like to call me,
and you make me feel
like you really want to talk to me,
not just out of obligation
to call your Mama…
and I love that you make
me feel so good when
you introduce me to your friends…
you make me feel truly loved.

I love that you seem to care
what I think about you
and your life,
and you make me feel like you really do
value my opinions most of the time.
I love that you have something in you
that makes you so charismatic
to me and to others,
and that they can see
the special person you truly are,
and I believe that you are from
the highest realms of heaven
and know you were brought here
just to make people happy…
and you do that so well!

And I know I must be pretty
special myself for you
to have chosen me
as your mother in this lifetime…
and I hope in our next life together,
you can be my father
so I can love you with the same
caring, support, and love
you have given me…
and I can make you proud
of me as I am of you.

But most of all, sweet angel child of mine,
I love that you are my son
and my friend,
and that I have you in my life…

Thanks for being the son
I always wanted…
I couldn’t have asked for a better one…
I love you so much.

How can it be that when

I bent to kiss you good night,

My daughter,

A beautiful young woman

Lay where only yesterday

A little girl had been?

When did the barrettes and

Ponytail ribbons,

Of birthday party days, give way to the

Styling comb and make-up mirror

Of  Saturday night dates?

Was it not only yesterday,

Crayons of all colors laid upon the table

Where now bottles of nail polish rest?

How can it be the buggy you filled

With so many dolls

Has been pushed aside and new suitcases

Are filled instead

Did you ever know the finger you

Wrapped yourself around was tied right to my heart?

It seems as though the ink has just dried

On the pages of your baby book

And here we are laughing over pages

In your year book.

How did the ballet slippers of a little girl

Become the high heels of a young woman on her way?

Such a little while ago you cried,

"Mama, I'm scared", and now you whisper,

"Mama, don't worry I'll be fine."

When did the teddy bear you hugged all night

Become the photo of someone you've chosen for life?

How can it be the smell of baby powder

Turned instead to the scent of perfume,

The giggles of a little girl

Became the tears of a teen,

And the roses tiny fingers picked

Were treasured like the petals of a prom bouquet?

Wasn't it only yesterday ruffles and tea parties

Colored my world pink and today

A new address and a good-bye kiss stain my world blue?

How did it happen so quickly and

When I stop to realize all my golden tomorrows

Will bask in the memories of pink yesterdays.

Thank you Lord for pink yesterdays.

too good to be her mother’s daughter ;>